picking a color to paint my room is turning out to be considerably more stressful than anticipated... this leads to the scratching and picking (revisited below).
i dont want to spend the money on paint and then decide i dont like it and have to paint again. so, im stressing about something that hasnt even happened yet, and may not happen.
this should be fun, picking a color.
im realizing that weekly rewards may not be enough motivation to get me through the first week of not picking.
i think i need to start week one with daily gifts. nothing fancy or expensive, just something to help me get through each day.
omg! this is brilliant! what about dessert. i can only have dessert each night if i make it 24hrs w/o picking.
this will work b/c i am a freak about dessert. dessert is the reason for living.
another possibility is that the reward system wont work at all b/c it doesnt really address the root of the problem... stress and anxiety.
i cant eliminate all stress and anxiety since sometimes my stress and anxiety come from the lack of stressors. but perhaps i can create a way for myself to respnd when i notice the stress or anxiety... for instance... what if every time i start to pick, i chose to stop, close my eyes, breathe deeply and relax.
an alternative might be investing in a hat that i wear for the rest of my life.
tegan and sara - clever meals
previously:
weather or not - 2006-03-07
My Flight - 2006-03-02
poetree in motion - 2006-02-28
ultimate personality test - 2006-02-25
limerick e-trip - 2006-02-22