idk why but im awake... with a headache no less.
since when do i wake up at 5:30am with a headache? (btw it was 5:30 am when i actually woke up... ive been playing around with image files for the last hour).
i didnt even get my minimum 5 hours of sleep.
see, usually i sleep at least 5 hours before waking up ridiculously early.
perhaps its stress.
stress is a probable cause. isnt that illegal?
and is it more interesting if someone babbles all together in a single paragraph or when its split into dozens of paragraphs like this entry? email, IM or Note me with your opinion.
omg, i could go for some trader joe's chocolate covered raisins right now.
oh, so the stress?
well, im moving to JP. thats good stress.
but i have to rent out my room in the city. thats bad stress.
its not so much that im worried about renting the room. i cant imagine it wont be snatched up in a hurry. its a beautiful room and an amazing price.
the problem is... its a mess. my room. my room is a mess. and i feel a massive pressure to clean it before half a dozen people show up this afternoon and evening.
im trying to tell myself that someone should be impressed with the amount of stuff that can be fit in this space... and that alone should convince them that this is a great deal. but im compelled to make it clean and pretty instead.
the problem? there is simply too much stuff to create any remote picture of "clean".
i would have to toss everything out in order to have a clean room. and im trying! believe me... im trying.
this weekend i went through my trunk of paper... yes, i have a big trunk that is full of various kinds of new and used wrapping paper, colorful pages from magazines, old holiday cards waiting to become new holiday cards, and of course ribbon of all sorts.
oh, so i went through my trunk of paper and threw out some crushed bows and tangled ribbon. it didnt make a dent in the trunk, BUT i assure you it was a very challenging task to actually let go of something that might one day be useful, even if crushed or tangled.
the stuff i save for art is somewhat justifiable. but then ive got soooo many damn books. i used to want to have a big house with built in book cases for a library of my own. now i just want to be able to walk from one end of my room to another without the possibility of a book avalanche.
so, i have two tallish piles of books that i want to get rid of... but i havent read them and feel the need to read them if im to let them go. otherwise, i spent incredible amounts of money without even having the pleasure of using the items i bought... buying books, never reading them, and then just letting them go.
i want to read them... i do. but i have less than a month before i move. and id like to sell them, not just take them to book heaven.
omg, im overwhelmed. that does not help the headache.
actually, i wonder if the headache is at all from how polluted ive decided the air is in my neighborhood.
its amazing how staying a couple nights in a less air-polluted neighborhood really kicks your ass once you get back to your own more air-polluted neighborhood. the air actually smelled dirty tonight.
im going to have to take ib profin. which means i should also eat something and drink something. which means i have to brush my teeth.
maybe i could use this time to list my books for sale on amazon.com or something. it doesnt get them out of the way, but it does open the possibility of shortening the stacks.
indigo girls - let it be me (its actually playing in my head and i cant get it out)
previously:
weather or not - 2006-03-07
My Flight - 2006-03-02
poetree in motion - 2006-02-28
ultimate personality test - 2006-02-25
limerick e-trip - 2006-02-22